To the mum battling mental illness
You are not alone. Your tears may fall silently but I see you.
When you are painting on a smile when someone asks ‘How are you?’
I see you
Those days where getting out of bed, attending to your childs every whim
The same days you lock yourself away and cry, sob and scream ‘Why me!’
I see you
Stepping into the Doctors surgery, the fear visible in your eyes
The courage it takes to say those three words ‘I need help’
I see you
The daily medication, the therapy, the pain you carry with you
When life seems void of all hope and you feel lost.
I see you
Those groups you go to and wonder why you can’t be happy like those other mums
The immense effort it takes to simply get out of the house to go to them
I see you.
The daily battle with the demons in your mind
The ones that steal your memories, your smile, your happiness
I see you
Those days when you get a glimmer of sunshine within and think ‘Maybe things will be ok’
When things don’t seem quite so hard and hope is easier to find.
I see you
The days you look back and see the rollercoaster you are on, it’s highs and lows.
The same days when you feel hope, hold on to it, hold it tight. This too shall pass.
Those of us who have trodden the path before and those who are stlll walking it, we see you.
You are not alone.
#maternalMHmatters
